I think I
maybe smiled once.
not like the
image painted onto
my face the day we met,
but more like
who just met
while waiting for a
train in Chicago
the way he smiled
reminded me of
and of a face that
maybe had a
smile behind it
when I stared at
books of poetry
at six years old
there were never really any regrets
just this meticulous success that begets
a set of notions he sometimes suppressed.
and I am sorry for not understanding why
since I suppose I should certainly know,
of all people. possibly. it’s also probable
that perhaps it doesn’t matter much
because maybe most things don’t
matter much, meaning mondays
will almost always definitely suck.
because come time for monday, a lot
of us, quite frankly, don’t give a fuck.
and then there are those of us that do.
those that yearn; those that learn that
we have to earn the attention of the likes of you.
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I can’t really tell whether I am dreaming or not anymore.
I lost sight of what was real long ago as I began to lust for more.
more days filled with carefree afternoons,
late mornings, and nights that are always over way too soon.
more moments that I know aren’t meant to last
and more serenity to cope with the moments that are gone way too fast.
I want to believe that this is all simply a bad dream.
that my eyes will open and I will realize nothing is ever as it seems
but it always is. at least, when things seem the worst
they typically are always the worst, but that’s okay because I think I can make this work.
I will simply close my eyes and pray for better days
it isn’t the best solution, but it just might make me feel okay
it went from
cozy and comforting
to something that’s not.
from the place
I couldn’t wait
to the place
struggling daily these
mornings are hard.
who knew the
softness of the
keep me under lock.
love like this is simple.
no expectations; just life, lights
and us. simply put, it is perfect.
purely platonic, but this is perfect.
no jealousy or heartbreak
looming around the corner.
just two people, some stories to share
and a good time to be had.
we’re nothing but good friends
so know that I love you.
know that if you have no one else,
you have me.