Helplessness

There are times in life where you find yourself feeling helpless. Be it because you’re stressed about work, you’ve been in an accident some sort, or because the entire universe seems to be conspiring against you, the feeling is the same. People often suggest that you should focus on the things that you can control in order to help you feel better. But I’ve come to the conclusion that you can’t help feeling helpless.

Whenever we encounter a situation in which we feel helpless, the things that one can do seem rather insignificant in comparison. We can choose to either let the negative energies affect us, or to keep an optimistic attitude and go on with life. I think most everyone opts for the second choice, but the first choice just seems so much easier after experiencing a barrage of negativity.

Personally, I sometimes drink helplessness like an alcoholic a cold beer. The emotion hits me at random times, and, more often then not, I really don’t know why I feel the way I do. Instead of doing something proactive, I react to my emotional state the only way I know how: sulking. While the alcoholic drinks at every occasion, I indulge in every emotion. I need to learn when it’s okay and not okay to indulge, but I just can’t help it sometimes. Every now and then, I like to feel how helplessness crackles about on my skin like a cold fire that burns me senseless, if that makes sense. In other words, I like to hurt so bad that I can’t hurt any longer due to the numbness of my heart. I like to physically feel my body react to my soul with shivers and deep breaths.

I’m not really sure if I’m making sense right now, and that’s making me feel a bit helpless. Then again, I’m not sure if I ever make sense, so I guess I could try and keep that in mind. I’m not sure why I’m feeling helpless tonight, but there is one thing I know that I can do for sure. In fact, anyone who might be feeling helpless can do this. Simply close your eyes and go to sleep. A temporary fix for a recurring problem, I know. But sometimes you just have to wait things out and look at them at another time from a different angle.

I’ve yet to figure out how to effectively combat helplessness. Maybe it’s only me who struggles with emotion this way, but, even if it is, it’s nice to pretend that there’s someone else out there who can relate to the way that I feel. It has just occurred to me that maybe that’s the best way to go feeling better while you feel helpless. You can’t help the way you feel about things, but you should always keep this in mind: there’s probably someone out there feeling the same way you are. Knowing that you are not alone makes it easier to face this bitter feeling. We all laugh together, smile together, and we’ll all die together. It only makes sense that all cry together.

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